Feeling unmotivated doesn’t mean you’ve failed—it just means it’s time to let purpose lead, not feelings.
I woke up today with zero desire to get out of bed. Honestly, if I didn’t have a job to show up for, I might’ve stayed under the covers. But as I stood there half-dressed and groggy, something clicked.
I remembered something I’d lost track of: my body doesn’t decide my life—I do.
My body is just a tool I move through the world with. It helps, sure. But it’s not the boss of me. If I let energy levels set my standard, I’d only act when I felt strong. That’s backwards.
So, I made a new deal with myself. I’ll lead. The body follows. Energy is a bonus—not the requirement.
And just like that, my whole day flipped.
⚖️ Daily Progress:
Here’s how I’m doing today.
Weight Loss
| Date | Weight (lbs) |
| Weight Goal | 176.4 (80.0 kg) |
| 8 May 2025 – Worst day | 207.2 (94 kg) |
| 10 May 2025 – Day 1 | 203.5 (92.3 kg) |
| 16 May 2025 – Week 1 | 198.2 (89.9 kg) |
| 23 May 2025 – Week 2 | 195.3 (88.6 kg) |
| 30 May 2025 – Week 3 | 192.5 (87.3 kg) |
| 31 May 2025 – Day 22 | 192.5 (87.3 kg) |
| 1 June 2025 – Day 23 | 192.5 (87.3 kg) |
| 2 June 2025 – Day 24 | 196.2 (89 kg) |
| 3 June 2025 – Day 25 | 199.5 (90.5 kg) |
📉 Today’s Change: +3.3 lbs (1.5 kg)
📉 Total Loss (in 25 days): -7.7 lbs (-3.5 kg)
📉 Average Loss Per Day: -0.31 lbs (-0.14 kg)
That number doesn’t lie. Sugar is still running the show when I let it in. It’s time to end this “reset” and get back to what works: zero sugar, zero excuses, zero drift.
Blood Pressure (BP)
| Date | BP – Before Food (Best of 3) | BP – Before Food (Worst of 3) | Average |
| BP Goal | 120/80 | ||
| 12 Apr / 24 Apr 25 – Worst days | 134/86 | 161/88 | 147.5/87 |
| 10 May 25 – Day 1 | 151/86 | 168/88 | 159.5/87 |
| 16 May 25 – Wk 1 | 133/83 | 150/94 | 141.5/88.5 |
| 23 May 20 – Wk 2 | 125/86 | 134/88 | 129.5/87 |
| 30 May 25 – Wk 3 | 132/79 | 138/81 | 135/80 |
| 31 May 25 – Day 22 | 120/83 | 134/81 | 127/82 |
| 1 Jun 25 – Day 23 | 134/82 | 139/93 | 136.5/87.5 |
| 2 Jun 25 – Day 24 | 135/86 | 142/82 | 139.5/84 |
| 3 Jun 25 – Day 25 | 140/88 | 152/85 | 146/86.5 |
💪 Today’s Systolic Change (1st number): +3
💪 Today’s Diastolic Change (2nd number): -3.5
On its own, this spike might not bother me. But paired with my glucose levels, it’s a loud red flag. Today isn’t just a caution sign—it’s a medication day.
Blood Glucose
| Date | Blood Glucose – Before Food (mmol/L) |
| Blood Glucose Goal | 4.2 |
| 23 Apr 2025 – Worst day | 7.4 |
| 10 May 2025 – Day 1 | 6.4 |
| 17 May 2025 – Week 1 | 4.4 |
| 23 May 2025 – Week 2 | 5.3 |
| 24 May 2025 – Week 3 | 4.4 |
| 31 May 2025 – Day 22 | 4.7 |
| 1 June 2025 – Day 23 | 4.6 |
| 2 June 2025 – Day 24 | 5.9 |
| 3 June 2025 – Day 25 | 8.3 |
📊 Today’s Change: +1.3 mmol/L
📊 Days in Normal Range (3.9–5.6 mmol/L): 13 out of 25
There’s no ignoring this. It’s not just a number. It’s a warning shot.
It says: You can’t out-think addiction without a plan.
Sugar cravings don’t go quietly. They wait. Then they pounce. And when they do, they take your health with them—unless you choose otherwise.
🚨 Time to Take the Power Back
Motivation isn’t always there—but control is.
I started today sluggish, foggy, and tired of the numbers. But I’ll end it with resolve. Why? Because even though my numbers went up, I didn’t stay down.
And that’s what this journey’s really about: deciding to act, even when your body doesn’t want to.
Lead Your Body. Don’t Follow It.
Today’s take away: You don’t have to feel ready to take action.
Your body might resist, your mind might stall, but your will can cut through it all. The game changes the moment you stop waiting for the perfect mood—and start moving with purpose. Be the mover, not the shaken!
Show up. Lead. Let the results follow.
See You Tomorrow! 😊
Warmly,
Paul
